Pros and Cons of My Trust Issues
When you’re meeting someone and butterflies kick in, it is dangerous to simply just allow yourself to blindly free-fall and it is dangerous to have layers of brick walls guarding everything. It is so difficult for me to not walking a new situation with pain from the last one. I will free-fall and continue to layer myself with these brick walls. It's weird because It is almost as if I enjoy having my guard up and watching someone earn my love and respect. But then it complicates everything. The pros and cons list of my trust issues runs pretty deep on the cons side.
Pro: I don’t get hurt
Pro: I make the interested person work for it.
Con: People hate complicated
Con: I never really trust people
Con: Emotionally I never give 100% of myself to that person.
Con: When the going gets tough, I run
Con: I pre-judge people and they don’t deserve that
That’s just a few of the things that I have been trying to challenge lately. I wish I was the type of person that didn’t feel the need to guard their heart completely. I wish I free-fell into someone’s love.